THE GATE OF GOD

THE GATE OF GOD by Sondráya Posted 3/21/07

How do you free yourself from the guilt and remorse of regrettable deeds and choices?

How do you find peace and heal a dysfunctional past?

How do you make wrong things right?


I became free when I realized I am a product of how I responded to each life situation. Each time I chose punishment over correction and understanding; hate over love; anger over wholesome action - I caused pain and devastation to myself and others.

Once I saw my ignorant doings, I asked Spirit, what I could do about them. How could I heal my trail of tears in both my outer and inner world?

In my willingness to be accountable for my wrong I instantly saw I am innocent. I saw I truly believed I was either a victim of my inner and outer conditions or that xI had a right and a duty to respond such and soxx They were wrong it wasn't suppose to happen. If I had of had then, I would of could of, If I wasn't so depressed, poor, then If the world was fair I could have. The world seen from my victim's eyes was sordid, twisted and sick. It was over powering, a force from which I felt I had no choice but to succumb.

The world seen from I AM THAT
I AM the Progeny of the Most High
is an entirely different place.
Problems become spiritual exercise
conducive to compassion and miracles.
I inter a place where the weapons are LOVE, MERCY and BEAUTY
A place so Heavenly, Godly, Powerful
That if victims have ever experienced it
It could only be thru the temporary highs of hallucinogens and such
Never to be fully assimilated.

But, there is a Gate inside each human being
where we can open to the flood of such a Heavenly Love
such a Galactic Powerful Presence
And in that avalanche of Divine LOVE
all the devastating dreams of the world
come undone
all that can be remembered in the
LOVE of the Most Beloved
is LOVE itself
and all else is but a bubble
in a floating dream.

The Gate is that place between
the ugly and the beauty
joy and sorrow

We cannot open the gate
We cannot even get to the Gate
without walking thru the fields of our own actions.
Without walking thru the fields of each our own destructions
the fields of hurt and pain we have experienced, caused or nurtured.
To reach the Gate of God, We must walk without blaming our actions on some one or some thing else.

When we are ready to walk thru the plane of our ignorance and mistakes and failures
not as a victim or as a villain
but as a soul separated from the realization of its Holy Heritage
who forgot its Mystical Essence
As a Soul who ignorantly believed s/he was powerless
living within an unfair and insane world.
As a Soul who believed in the power of a loving God but didnxt believe enough to accept her self as the xSunx of such a God.

When we walk thru our field of life in such a willing state
of seeing our self as the proprietor of all the wrong
we both gave and received in the life behind us -
upon reaching the Gate
one needs but to knock
with full seeing of its' predicament
for in full seeing will s/he hold herself guiltless
S/He will see s/he was at all times a Holy Sun
whose crime was forgetfulness

S/he forgot and felt unworthy
and only in such an unworthy state could s/he have made such a mess.
But by reacquainting herself with just a tiny idea
of possibility of resurrection and resolution
of hope beyond such a mess
of an All Loving Presence living within
comes the possibility of a Miracle

So with this idea of the possibility of a miracle in mind
s/he knocks upon the Gate
S/he asks and prays with her entire heart and soul
for a way to make good of all her hurtful doings
to make beauty from all her ugly.

And s/he prepares to stand there
forever
if necessary
until the prayer is answered and the Gate is opened.
Because this is a Gate that only opens from the other side

and it has been written in countless mystical texts
KNOCK AND IT SHALL BE OPENED UNTO YOU
ASK AND IT SHALL BE GIVEN

So I say to you
to find such a Gate
go to your most devastating deed
reveal to yourself the worst thing you have ever done
experience the worst thing that was ever done onto you
and ask to be shown your responsibility for it as well
Go thru your devastations
naked without trying to make anyone to blame
even yourself
but go there and face it
until you see
it was by your own choice
your own ignorant choice
that it was done
and when you see that
then and only then can you
choose again
then can your past deeds be undone
by choosing to knock on the Gate of God

Just standing near the Gate of God is a blessing
your Heart quickens
your Spirits rises
for the Holy Presence extends beyond the Gate
you bathe in Its Light
you remember there is no where the Presence is not

standing at the Gate becomes a Holy Encounter
you donxt know how and you don't know when
but you do know - EVERY THING is and will continue to turn out fine

...
She climbs her pain
Looking for rubies
Digs round in her wounds
Till she finds a rose
Repainting her life
Her 'Hand Me Down Duty'
She climbs her pain
Till she finds a ruby

She re-dyes her life
Brushes every cry beauty
Turns in to Vogue
Her 'Hand Me Down Clothes'
She climbs her rage
Till peace shines a ruby
Digs round in her wounds
Till she carves a rose
Poem by Sondráya © 1987-2007